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To Blog Or Not To Blog

2011-11-23T07:27:00.000-08:00

Hello! Long time no speak. So I'm back to blogging - albeit rarely - seeing as I missed talking about nothing to complete strangers. And suppose I'll occasionally write about adventures from my exciting life,but enough of my pointless rambling - from now on, this blog will be more art focussed.

I'm studying Art at college (UK college - not university) and we're made to regularly produce paintings and drawings like machines so I'll regularly have pretty pictures to show you. Like this...

Hope you enjoy!

The Nutshell.

2010-04-07T12:27:00.001-07:00

hey ho! so heres the past few days in a nutshell:

overall highlights-

Eating dinner and humming Bad Romance (why? i have no idea). I stop at the 'caught in a' part and my 3 year old brother in the next rooms replies with 'bad romance'. O_O. Dad bought a new underwater camera for when we go scuba diving next :D. Jammin along to Mumford & Sons (Awake My Soul <3). New phone!. Back to drawing :). Mainly manga cos im still kinda incapable of making anything else up haha. My friend Jo came back from Down Under and she has an AWESOME accent.

and.. i think thats it? but karma just had to go and bite me in the ass so some not so nice things have happened too -

Didnt get a job i applied for (at a chemists). I wouldn't really mind if the girls from my school who already work there weren't so... i dunno... crappy. huh guess im just a little jealous.Broke my earphones :(. I was listening to my ipod when i was cutting something with scissors and the wire got caught in the middle. oops. Baysitting. ALL THE TIME. and im on easter break :(.School decided to dump ALL of our coursework deadlines on us at the same time. The guy i like, i really shouldnt like (hes being an ass). and he doesn't even know i exist. But hey theres always tomorrow :).
peace out,
jk x

New Beginnings

2010-04-04T07:44:00.000-07:00

Hi :). Well, i havent blogged since.... last July i think.

SAY WHAAAAT?!?!

I'ts been a while huh? Ive missed blogging. It was a nice kind of release without anyone caring about what i say or do or whatever. But i've changed somewhat during these past few months and im back on the scene. Oh yeah! I guess i couldnt really be bothered to keep up a front. I felt a stupid need to make it sound good or look pretty since i was kinda *ahem*... insecure back in the day. But that stupid phase is over and im feeling goood :). Plus, alot has happened, im 16 now (woo?) and we have a lot to catch up on. If you dont like what i say - or even how i say it - then... uh... sorry? haha

jk xx

chapter five.

2009-07-11T18:24:00.001-07:00

"My Seventh First Impression"

hey! im back for a bit. so ill keep it short but sweet. Im not asure that sweet is the right word for what im talking abou though :S...

the philippines is great. nice to see my family again and all. but my seventh first impression of the place (ive visitied seven times now and each time it feels different) was kinda sad... i was home from the airport (on the right side of the road! how weird!) and all i could see were rows after rows of shanty houses. or shacks. same thing. so the whole time i was thinking 'were gnna pass them all soon. we dont live near here.'but when i strated recognising were we were, closer to where i lived, there were still all these shacks aound. oh shit. dont get me wrong, i dont live in a shack. i live in a nice big house. but what scared me was how close we all were to it and how nothing had really changed.

I took a whole load of priceless pictures but they all seemed to have disappeared from my camera :(. Theseincluded a dog chaned to the pavement of a main rod, a guy on a motorbike with a baby staning at the front of his seat holding on to his dad's neck for dear life, a woman bathing her baby in a plastic tub at the side of the road, a working male urinal next to a bus stop, a very brown river lined with shanty homes and many more things that would probably either stop you from going to the philippines or want to make you help in some way.

personally, i've made it my mission to do some volunteer work in the philippines when (or if) i become a doctor.

sorry for the crappy mood. i just wanted to share :). ill try not to let it spoil my holiday hehe.

peace! xx

eep!

2009-07-04T03:33:00.000-07:00

hey! so sorry but i wont be blogging for a couple of weeks now. computer ban! sheesh. but next time you get a blog from me, ill be in the philippines! yaaay! see you there

jk,x

chapter four and a half.

2009-06-30T12:34:00.000-07:00

"Arg."

sorry for the lack of blogs :(. bad start to my blogging life. i was grounded! haha typical me. buti think im back...? if my dad doesnt ground me again, that is. ive got so much to say! so ill get back to you soon :) x

chapter four.

2009-06-20T09:07:00.001-07:00

"Go Jo Bro..."

I have recently been shown Joe Jonas dancing to Beyoncé's "Single Ladies" and let me tell you, it was the freakiest thing i have even seen a guy do. ew.
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thank god that's over.

i dont know what's worse - a guy in a tight suit and heels that can't dance for crap or that fact that he did it for publicity. thats right, it was for Jo Bro's adoring fans. thanks to you, Joe Jonas, your fan count has pretty much halved in the past week alone. congrats.

.... and it sure as hell was the funniest thing ive ever seen :)

chapter three.

2009-06-19T13:22:00.000-07:00

"The Serious Part"

You know when people say that someone's empty hearted? well, that's me. dont get me wrong - i know it's nothing to be proud of; it sucks really - buti think i have an excuse. i think im only empty hearted cos whatever was stuffed in there in the first place has been sucked out of me. slowly and painfully.

How? im not entirely sure. but i have an idea. for those who dont know, ill give you a general overview of my life. my mom decided to go against her parents in the philippines and moved to america with my dad. there, the had my sister and me. they then moved back to the philippines (a few months later) cos it didnt work out and my parents got divorced. 6 years filled with parent-visiting-weekends later, i move to england with my new english stepdad. hes cool at first. but then he introduces 'grounding'. o crap.

So here i am, at the grand old age of fifteen, having been forced to grow up prematurely.

"When youre a kid you have your own language, and unlike French or Spanish or whatever you start learning in fourth grade, this one youre born wiht, and eventually lose. Everyone under the age of seven is fluent in Ifspeak. Kids think with their brain cracked wide open; becoming and adult, I've decided is only a slow sewing shut." - My Sisters Keeper (Anna), Jodi Picoult.

My Sisters Keeper was one of the hardest books ive ever read. it wasn't tehnically hard - it didnt have any ridiculously long words in it or anything. its just reading about such a complicated family from o many points of views hurts my head and my heart. when i was reading as Anna, the young girl who couldnt count the number of medical donations she made to her sister on both her hands, was easy. im young, i have an older sister, i have a pushy (understatement maybe?) mom; i would uderstand. but reading from the parents point of view, now thats a different story.

I dont know what makes it so hard! maybe its the trying to understand a parent part, or the selfish child in me that wonders why my mom screws up. but more on that another day :). unfortunately, im being kicked off by my ex-army sergeant major number one asshole dad. hope he doesnt see this haha. if he does, back me up? hehe.

see ya xx

chapter two.

2009-06-19T11:59:00.001-07:00

And so begins my diary...

18/06/09 - City Athletics.

Yesterday was a good day. full of sports -although, being in a floral, puffy dress that likes to blow in the wind, i couldn't take part :( - , maths (yay), and freinds.

THE HEADLESS BOY.

Me and my fellow mathlete.

(just kidding)

Katie ( go visit Malais Jolie, its awesome :)) at

The abandoned fairground

me and the gang went to find some ice-cream and ended up in an abandoned fairground. it was the creepiest place we had ever been, no joke.

The sign at the fairground...creepy, i know.

So thats it for....about five minutes. see you then :)

chapter one.

2009-06-13T12:49:00.000-07:00

so, theres something i think you pught to know about me before you delve in to the deep dark well that is my life....
*sigh*
....well....
im only 5 feet tall. haha.
...um...is it usually this hard to find something to say? i think its just me ><". actually, i think im kinda creeped out about the fact that im talking to myself. meh.
ill get over it.
how exactly do you find something to say? you cant look for unspoken words. you cant even see them. that is my feeble excuse for having no creativity whatsoever. accepted?

p.s the picture above (done on paint :)) is of people. they aren't stick-men. they are stick-people. and just to let you know, i am not male; i am female. just to let you know.

blurb is a funny word.

2009-06-12T13:38:00.000-07:00

once upon a time there was a little girl. not young, but little. in her too-big house on her too-high chair, she sat and thought. and the thought that she was thinking was "oh shit. what the hell do i type?"

so hi. im me and welcome to my blog... i know, i know. not the best youve seen. but learn from the motto i live by - "get over it." besides, when you start at the bottom, theres no-where to go but up. :)